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[23 Jan 2007|01:33am]
i'm still alive! i didn't die!
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[09 Nov 2006|04:40am]
so sometimes you forget how good it feels to be home.
don't let anyone tell you that you can never go home. it's where you belong.
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[14 Sep 2006|12:30pm]
[ mood | awake ]

You Belong in Paris

Stylish and a little sassy, you were meant for Paris.
The art, the fashion, the wine, the men!
Whether you're enjoying the cafe life or a beautiful park...
You'll love living in the most chic place on earth.
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PROJECT RUNWAY RANT! [07 Sep 2006|01:01pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

guess who got to see project runway last night!!! i saw all of the last couple episodes that i've missed because our dorm doesn't get bravo! my friend katie from my floor invited me and a couple of my friends to go over her house and watch it. i can't even tell you how excited i was to see angela's ugly butt get kicked off! yesss! but, i was sad that i had to watch robert leave... i teared up at that point. i'm sorry but he wasn't trying to be boring.. he was trying to flatter the mom's form, or lackthereof!!
so, i also saw the new episode! let me tell you. i'm sorry, but now jeffrey's got to go. i hate him. i hate his stuff. that dress was fugly. sorry. it wasn't a flattering color and NO ONE would ever wear that. i don't care what those dumbass judges said either, i hearted kayne's dress. but my favorite was definitely uli. it's SO hard to have a favorite this season.
who i'm dying to see win: uli or michael.
who i just really like in general: kayne.
who i just want to kill: jeffrey. ergh.

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[02 Sep 2006|11:04am]
[ mood | excited ]

so today's my first college football game. am i excited? HELL YEAH.

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names survey [27 Aug 2006|12:12pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Movie Star Name: name of favorite snack food and grandfather’s first name
Snickerdoodle Earl ... horrible!

Fashion Designer Name: first word you see on the left and favorite residence
Dasani Westchester

Exotic Foreigner Alias: favorite spice and last foreign vacation spot
Cinnamon London

Socialite Alias: silliest childhood nickname and town where you last partied
Blanca Morgantown

Icon Alias: something sweet within sight and any liquid in your kitchen
Strawberry Pepsi

Detective Alias:favorite baby animal and high school
Kitty Shanahan

Soap Opera Alias: middle name and street where you first lived
Amanda Cheyney

Rock Star Alias: favorite candy and last name of a cute musician
Buttercream Dylan

Star Wars Name: first 2 letters of your first name and the first three letters from
Your last name and the first 2 letters of your mothers maiden name and the
First three letters of the city you were born in
Habur Brphi .. definitely interesting

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stolen from angry boy. mwaahaha [27 Aug 2006|01:05am]
I am shorter: than EVERYONE. except midegets. i'm not a midget.

I tan easily: lately, i've been tanning a lot more easy!

Burn easily: usually, but not this year.

I wish my hair was a different color: duhh. my hair's died red for a reason.

I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color: yep.

I've had/have braces: nope. i have pretty nice teeth in general.

I wear glasses or contacts: glasses for driving.

I have hearing aids: uhm, no.

I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger: drunk guys, yeah.

I have freckles: a couple. i wish i had more. i love, love, love freckles.

Embarrassment: ick.

I've laughed so hard I've cried: the other night. damn, phil hogan's pretty hilarious.

I've glued my hand to something: not that i can recall.

I've had my pants rip/drop in public: what does that even mean?

I was born with a disease/impairment: asthma? oh, and i was jaundice.

I've sat in a doctors office with a friend: no.

I've had my wisdom teeth removed: nope

I've had a serious surgery: nope

I've had chicken pox: yep!

Experiences: love them!

I've gotten lost in a city: listen, i've gotten lost in my town. let alone a city. hmph. amateurs.

I've seen a shooting star: they're so pretty.

I've been to a casino: not yet.

I've been skydiving: no thanks.

I've played spin the bottle: actually, no.

I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour: it can't be physically done.

I've been in a car accident: yeah. don't ask me about it.

I've been Skiing: no.

I've caught a snowflake on my tongue: nope.

I've sat on a roof top at night: nah. not with the bats. no thanks.

I've played chicken: ooo! fun! dangerous, but oh so fun.

I've played a prank on someone: who hasn't?

I've ridden in a taxi: nah.

I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show: i had a giant V written on my forehead.. don't even ask.

I've eaten Sushi: oo. the avacado ones are delish.

Relationships: i enjoy my current one with mmaarrioooo.

I miss someone right now: YESS. everyone. my parents. my siblings. my boyfriend. my best friends. my dog. town!

I have a boyfriend/girlfriend: yep!

I've gotten divorced: not unless i've been to kentucky.

I am a cuddler: i LOVE cuddling. my boyfriend used to call me the cuddle nazi.

I've been kissed in the rain: yep.

I've hugged a stranger: yep! that's fun!

Random: BURP!

I own over 5 rap CDs: uhm, no.

I own something from Hot Topic: hell yes, bitch!

I own something from Pac Sun: are you kidding? one of my favorite stores!

I own something from The Gap: yep.

I own something I got on e-bay: yes!

I own something from Abercrombie: okay, yes.

I own something from American Eagle: ..i like that store. don't make fun of me.

I own something from Anchor Blue: what the heck is that?

More Random!!: KA-BURP!

I can sing: no. i can't.

I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant: for what reason?

I sing in the shower: not anymore, dammit.

I am a morning person: sometimes.

I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day: nah.

I sometimes wear pajamas to school: nope

I know how to shoot a gun: nope.

I laugh at my own jokes: yeah, i'm a dork.

I am really ticklish: only in certain spots.

I bite my nails: only if it's uneven and i don't have a file handy.

I play video games: YESSS. final fantasy, tekken, and gta own you bitch.

I'm good at remembering faces: for the most part.

I'm good at remembering names: no, not really.
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late night ramble. [15 Aug 2006|01:43am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

i can't believe how fast my life has passed me by. it seems just a couple of years ago, i was an awkward freshman wearing a catholic school uniform for the first time, dodging taller students in the same ugly fashion as me. they were all childhood friends, talking and laughing about the vast improvements in their uniforms. "these are so much better than the ones at p and j," "i can't believe we get to chose the color of our kneesocks between three colors! quel freedom!" i remember my first mass at my high school, standing with one of the only girls i knew from grade school, looking around strangely. what the hell (oh, wait! i can't say that here can i!? ohmigod!) is everyone doing with those gestures? should i get communion .. and why do i want to eat the body and blood of jesus? what have i gotten myself into? am i supposed to be singing along with these stupid songs? was all i could manage for that hour.

i eventually became more comfortable with the rituals that i didn't take part in. i knew what gesture meant what .. when to kneel, when to pretend to pray. but, i would secretly be offering my own intentions up. don't get me wrong, catholicism is a very beautiful religion .. but four years of catholic school didn't inspire me to convert. especially when you have a religion teacher who is divorced, telling you you're going to hell because you're a protestant. well, that just blew my mind.. so, i took everything with a grain of salt.

at the same time, i thought the religion was gorgeous. all the praise songs grew on me a little and the rituals of the church really are beautiful. but, i didn't have any belief in the words being said in the homilies. i'd rather create my own homily to share with everyone. i didn't like how the old testament seemed a bit ignored. and i didn't like the opinions in my religion textbooks.

this isn't rambling, i swear. my words actually have meaning behind them. sometimes you just have to pay attention to what's going on around you. everything happens for a reason.. maybe i needed four years of catholic school to teach me something. while i should respect others' religions, i should try to keep in contact with my own. you can't respect other religions to the point that you forget about the one that connects so closely with your own beliefs and ideals. i found this out quite fast. i loved the catholic traditions when i first got to shanahan, but then i realized that there were things about it that i liked and didn't like. i rediscovered why i had taken so quickly to the quaker religion i had clicked with at my quaker camp i attended. it just fit me and who i am.

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.. wvu, here i come. [15 Aug 2006|01:36am]
[ mood | excited ]

i leave for school in two days!!!

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[10 Aug 2006|12:41am]
projecy runway was on tonight and it was definitely top-notch. woot! i was really afraid that robert was going to get voted off. that scared me a little.
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GRRRRRRRRRR. [03 Aug 2006|01:13am]
[ mood | irritated ]

boys are SOOOOO stupid. okay, i'm sorry but i can't ride to the beach for two and a half hours in a car that doesn't have air conditioning. or better yet, i can't ride to the beach in a car with a driver that's just too lazy and cheap to get it fixed. :/

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hmm. something to ponder. [31 Jul 2006|01:23am]
[ mood | curious ]

yesterday, i went to my friend's Eagle Scout/graduation party and he had a very interesting thing to say. "america is like a beautiful woman dying of cancer."

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[31 Jul 2006|01:21am]
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makes me sound like a cheap whore. yess! just what i was aiming for!
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[31 Jul 2006|01:19am]
's Past Lives

1523 BC: Roman politician
638 AD: An architect
1875 AD: A banker
'What were you in your past lives?' at

why? ... i'm bad at math.. so architect and banker don't make sense.
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[18 Jul 2006|06:35pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

..what the hell? the u.s. government is making any citizens stranded in beirut to sign a promisory note so the government can be compensated for the trip to cyprus out of lebanon. great to see you guys care. keep up the good job, dubya.

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[10 Jul 2006|03:00pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

the question is.. if you could marry any rockstar who would it be?

well, i had a hard time with this one. while i am currently dating the chubby redhead of my dreams, i seriously had to answer this question. jakob dylan? while this answer was tempting, i decided against it. keith richards? ew no, that's just nasty (he's probably a robot anyway!). mick jagger? no, everyone's tapped that.. plus, i'm not into chickens. as you can see, there was much pondering that went into this. i finally decided on bono.

reason #1: he's a musician. sorry, mario .. orchestra bells are hot and all.. but, bono even writes music. i'm a writer, so i genuinely like other writers.

reason #2: he's irish. i'm sorry, i'm a girl. i like accents. especially irish accents.

reason #3:he's passionate. i like a man with a little drive in life. especially a passionate drive.

reason #4: he's like the irish buddah. he seems to be completely wise. could be because he's kind of old, but that's okay. i've always liked older guys.

reason #5: he has someone in his band named "the edge" .. that's just neat.

reason #6: he's really smart. i heard a speech he gave at a college graduation. the man knows what he's talking about.

reason #7: he's a philanthropist. if he's that charitable with a whole continent of people he doesn't even know, how do you think he would treat his girlfriend?

reason #8: i'm a sucker for eighties' music and U2 is the epitome of eighties' music.

THIS IS HYPOTHETICAL SITUATION. i have a boyfriend. and he's not bono. and i'm more than fine with that.

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and you call us GODLESS?! [05 Jul 2006|09:58pm]
[ mood | amused ]

hey, ANNE COULTER! what's commandment number seven? i think it goes something like, "THOU SHALT NOT STEAL." i think that includes literary works.

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ALL OF US ARE DONE FOR. [02 Jul 2006|08:45pm]
[ mood | discontent ]

long time no post. officially, i am no longer a shanahan student. my graduation was june 2nd, and surprisingly, it went beautifully. the ceremony was almost painless (except, I know those girls wearing those horrible white stilettos were in mucho paino). it was much shorter than i imagined it would be. it seemed as if as soon as we processed into the pavillion at villanova, we were returning to the gym to find our homeroom teachers and our actual diplomas. i'm actually kind of glad it's over, but i feel that the time slipped away from me. did i really spend enough time with the right friends, the right people? i'll never really be sure. i just know that the friends i have, i don't want to lose touch. some of them will evaporate from my life, but others will be my bridal party, my treasures, my partners in crime.

the week after graduation was senior week, so we packed my saab full of stuff. i was a little afraid we were going to get pulled over at a checkpoint and have to put all of our crap back into my car. ocean city was fun.. the weather was horrible and friends battled friends. sure, it was a lot of togetherness. but, i think it was a lot of fun. i even got to meet my roommate. west virginia's going to be a lot of fun this fall. i'm really looking forward to it.

since senior week ended, i've just pretty much been wandering in a dimension of boredom and nothingness. it's my usual summer problem. i've tried to get a job, but nobody wants to hire someone without retail experience. mostly, my activities during the day include couch sitting and mtv watching. i know, i know. it's pretty sad. i'm actually to the point where i'm a "next" and "made" junkie. hopefully, i'll be able to send my resume in for a local magazine .. okay, maybe it's not that local. but, it's something to do and it's something i want to do.

anyway, happy fourth of july! even though i could be less patriotic, it's nice to finally have a grill again!

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[25 May 2006|02:33am]
[ mood | okay ]

wow. what can i say? my senior year is over next friday. today was my last full day of high school. we returned books and did the whole yearbook signing thing. took pictures of my lunch table.

our prom was last friday. it was a lot of fun, but not as much as i thought it would be. everyone looked really nice. maybe i'll post some pictures on myspace or facebook of everyone. i was really glad celia got to go, that was fun.

on to west virginia!

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[12 May 2006|12:11am]
[ mood | angry ]

whoa whoa whoa. chris got voted off american idol. i hearby am boycotting the show. i'm pissed and so is everyone else.

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